Friday, March 10, 2017

Story of my life | How I feel about work in general.

There are bad days and there's twice as ridiculous ones that you wish that the ground you're standing on just swallows you whole and disappear. The good news is, work will always be work. No matter what I do, no matter how much I profess to hate my job (there's nothing to hate about my job, I just like b*tch*ng out), having employment is something that's constant among the uncertainties of my life. Given the complexity of the nature of my job, I am grateful that it continues to hone my skills & gives me the personal satisfaction. And yes, pays the bills.

One of the major cause of my distress at work, is the constant banging in my ear by upset customers, demanding instant resolution to their consumer issues. The constant nagging eventually throws me into confusion & exhaustion, both mentally & emotionally. Even having that full understanding that this is just a job isn't enough to trick my mind not to be affected by the constant nagging. I'm not giving up my job just yet. 

People at work are confused of my behaviour, especially when I decline group happenings/outings and still on a work day. I'd rather relax my tensed being than have fleeting moments with people I don't really like which make me more tired than I really am and regret later on. Besides, in my mind, I've already spent majority of my time with people at work; five times a week, nine hours each day. I'd like to spend my rest days with people I love to spend time with. Build more memories with them. And personally, it's bad enough that I have to deal with morons, and worse if I have to babysit these people's feelings.

Don't get me wrong, I don't hate my current social circle, and I only want to be more in control of what I let in my life. However, I'm not one to indulge myself in cliques. I just can't get myself to bother with people I do not genuinely respect.

For weeks since my endorsement to production floor, my team leader and I have been working to improve my statistics; AER, tools usage & time management. So far for my VOC (voice of the customer) I'm making decent progress. What I really need to work on is my attitude towards work, I cannot let myself sulk this much.

How do you solve a problem like Mariza?!?!